Tonight is a hard one. The boys are at their first overnight visit with their mom. I’m sitting in bed and I’m actually missing the sound of the monitor. I know I won’t be woken up tonight by crying babies. I don’t have to try and get up and dressed before they wake up. I can sleep as late as I want. But I don’t want to. I want my kids home.
I was really tempted to sit and sulk all evening in front of the TV. But the Lord said no. So I went to our church’s prayer and worship service. Oh my. The Lord really knows what we need!! It was a wonderful time of praising God for who He is and who we are in Him.
During our time together, we read this verse:
Now to him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever. Amen.
This verse is bringing me rest tonight. As many hopes, dreams, plans, and desires as I have for these boys, God is able to do abundantly more! More than I can even ask or think. How? According to the power at work within us! Me! Through his death, resurrection, and spirit in me. He is equipping us to be warriors in prayer for these sweet boys. He has allowed us to physically care for them, and now it’s time to dream big for them! And I do. I dream big, and God can do even bigger.
This is how I will rest tonight.